Sometimes I think people hate me well not sometimes all the time. It’s really bad. I can’t tell if I’m gonna have friends at the end of this year. I have so few friends left from home which is sad. After they all turned against me freshman year I didn’t really know what to do or how to react so now I just think everyone hates me. When they don’t invite me to do things or go places I think they’re doing it because they find me annoying or weird when it’s probably just because they forgot to ask or it wasn’t really planned. I also feel like the things I do annoy people all the time, which sucks because I’m not trying to be annoying and I just urgh.
I need to stop feeling left out. And I need to stop getting mad at myself.
I hate myself sometimes it’s kind of horrible. I hate the way I act and homework and the stress of college and having to choose a major and I hate that I’m indecisive as fuck and I hate boys and feelings and ugh.